..... .... ... .. . mimi

my past...

it's my off day today. DAMN u Alex!!! i wanted it on my chalet days not today.its a stupid monday. nothing to do. but this whole week i'll be working office hours everyday. i dont feel like working more. but maybe less. still waiting for my own store to be opened. but i not looking forward to go there too. evryone wa saying "azmi,ur habourfornt will be like tis, like that..." urgh so fuck it,i dont really care. i juz didnt wan to job hop,that y im still here...once i got my Dip i be some where else...thats wad i hope...

i started out in sec sch so badly i wished i could go back in time to study hard.. if not i wont be like this uh. i had this besfren from sch,he's still contacting me,but he's still into all those gangsterism shit so i dont really meet him that often. we used to drink,fight,did alot of things. yes..we were from the same group,but had different heads. i mixed with ppl frm tanglin halt and teck whye lane. i even had ppl under me.tat was my time uh. i was number 1 in sch. the guy u never look at,or u get it frm behind. i was popular for the wrong reasons.
after sch, i got into aot of trouble,drugs,tatoos, fights,not with bare hands but with parangs and choppers.den one day i got caught wit possession with offensive weapon. i was sent to prison for 3 months wen i was just 17. untill then i still didnt realize. i went on and got into trouble,wen in for 1 month and 9 months after that. but wen i saw ibu cry on the third time i wen in i realized i had to stop. i even fought in prison and wen to Punishment cell and cant get a visit for a whole month. after 6 months of prison i was given home detention,i wen out early but had this taggin device on my foot. i only could go out at 7am to 7pm. i never seen the moon for the next 3 months.i wen to NS after that and i also made some trouble there. i wen to DB and spent like 2 and a half years there.everyone ORD first. every single one of my frens. haiz. wat alife rite. but i learned alot abt the hardship of life. enjoyment too. i've already started to club wen i was 16,smoked wen i was 12,untill now. it was sparks,house of ong,fire,ST,tunnel,the old MOS,so many matrip clubs.hahaha. but the ppl i new now all are running from being caught frm 5-5. its been so long...i had enuf already.of enjoyment and hardships of life. i neary also saw a frem mearly get killed uh. but this is life...

Naz was there to wen all happened,i new him for already 5 years and hes going to get married aready this nov. wen to go to his wedding preps. and it reminded me...but its ok...

Natasha,i new her for already 14 years. she wanted to get to noe u, we saw her at esplanade remember. but i didnt wanna make u jealous or angry thats y i didnt meet her or wanted u to noe her.

there my 3 best frens,Kenet,Natasha And Nazrudy...

now im starting to rebuild life,its been 2 years plus since i got into trouble. and im happy. at least i achieved one of my goals.

i met so many people in my life,but i never tot that 'She' could made a great impact in my life...
wen she see me i'll give the biggest smile anyone could give her...
if its fate,then we'll meet again...
either in this life or heaven...

**dont ever pull my mask out, coz u'll noe wats really behind it...

Monday, February 25, 2008 // 5:09 PM